I think the reason I've been so down about blogging is because I am down about life. Last year (meaning, last school year and not last calendar year) was ninety-to-nothing crazy. This is the pressure I thrive under. I was up at the gym by five am most mornings, work full days, and up late finishing Master's work. Every minute was accounted for.
Even when I was younger, I preferred time in which I had no time. I hated thinking about summer - those long, unscheduled days stretching before me.
I am one of those obnoxious overachievers - the first to work and the last to leave. I am going in to my tenth year in my profession and I went in study of a Master's looking for a new facet of my profession that might be more challenging? I'm not sure - but I didn't get the promotion that I was hoping for. Even though I understand the logic behind it and am trying to be patient, I can't help but be disappointed. This is affecting everything in my life.
I simply have too much free time on my hands. Too much. Too much free time means naps and novels - not housework and exercise or crafting and creating or yard work and laundry. I need to get it together.
I've promised myself a few things this year, some goals if you may. Something about that quote "Keep your face to the sunshine and you cannot see a shadow" (Helen Keller) that rings so true. I even created a reminder:
I promise to make it to the gym four days a week.
I promise to be so super productive that I don't have to bring work home.
I promise to be the best mentor available.
I promise to find success in each person who enters my classroom.
I promise to not let school papers pile up for six weeks on the kitchen counter.
I promise to be on top of Kindergarten homework every night.
I promise not to neglect my husband, my child, or myself.
I promise to become interested in something other than naps and novels.
I promise to be thankful for the unplanned minutes and unscheduled naps because it won't last forever.
I promise to not think of disappointment but opportunity.
I promise to know my weaknesses and make them my strengths.
Speaking of weaknesses, I think I have some laundry to do :)